It's been a while since I last posted. For some reasons, holiday feels a little burdensome this time.

It kinda feels like a cold winter...

The start of holiday had been tough. Due to people around me... I know I have to be responsible for it too, but sometimes it is just unfair. Lol I'm always a bit wu nai when it comes to this kind of topics. I know it's just me.
I always believe in action and reaction. Like karma. Meaning your reaction is due to my action. But what if I am already doing my best? Or what I deem as right, or what my heart tells me to do?

But on a brighter note, I'm back to being a fan girl again! Honestly feel like I'm a little too old for it now but oh well, it's fun plus it is a source of entertainment and escape in a way. Lalala for the first time, I've put up poster on my room wall! Girls' Generation!!

Last week, I finally went to soft rebond my hair too! After years of consideration. Lol I think it's fine, personally I'm okay with it ba. But majority of the feedback isn't good at all. Except a few who were consoling me -_-..... got that bad not.

Projects are basically screwing me up. I really thought that I'm long over the cruise episode. But the module RM on cruise kept forcing me to think back and immerse myself in that whole thing again. It's tough for me mentally....... it's not that I'm feeling scared of it, there's just this discomfort.
The thing is, I really wanted to make things better and be good friends. Sometimes it just feels like I'm the only one making the effort and it doesn't matter to them at all. Inter group problems. I wish I could talk to someone but little bro just don't understand such things... last term I was trying to save him but this term I'm afraid I can't even save myself.

2 months. Respect. Close both eyes.

So SNSD and projects filled my holiday this time. Extreme highs and extreme lows. Family too. It's nice.
Surprisingly I don't have a lot of appointments this time round. So I'm at home for like 80% of the time. Lol zai nv with a lot of bonding with Sunny. I like him. Hahahah really got a lot closer this time.

It's a special Christmas this year too. Bro not at home... no Christmas tree, no presents, not turkey, no log cake, no wine, no nothing. But that for the first time, I sent out Christmas cards. 12 local, 12 international. It's nice, like it became much more meaningful because of that. :)

& I was so surprised that this OST sang by Kim Taeyeon actually made me drop tears! First time I cried because of a song and I don't even know what it is about?! LOL. Good song and good Singer.
"Can you hear me" no idea what the Korean name is.

Less than a week till end of holiday and 2 months to end of poly. Endure ahhhhhh.